to exist

is already a problematic situation.

it really is hard to believe

if you think about it. 

especially if you dream a lot 

while sleeping. 

and also

it is more than an issue of believing in it

it is an issue of experiencing it as well.

on every level it's an issue.

then

you find yourself in a situation

where

your existence is not a problem of your own

but

is a problem for a group of people, too. 

while you are trying hard to 

make believe 

yourself

that 

you exist 

and 

maybe for some reason...

there comes a group of people

with dark faces

yelling at you

saying that

you shouldn't be existing the way you are.

so

even though i am not quite convinced myself

i would still say:

"i do exist. deal with it."